It's my job...I love you!

I continue to be amazed by God's blessings pouring into my life...He is so loving and so faithful to His promises. Life is hard. Sometimes it's just not fair. But we have a choice what we will do. I think most circumstances are what I mentioned yesterday- a fork in the road. You can go left or you can go right. It sounds so simple but yet at times it is the most scariest moment of your life. You can feel hopeless and helpless but you can also feel the Holy Spirit and trust that it WILL not only get you where you need to go but it WILL never ever leave you.

I love very easily one told me the other night. She said you just love to love on people. I smiled. I thanked her for the sweet compliment and then I thanked God for this gift. I see the people I love in a way they cannot see themselves. I do it at work, I do it with my children and I do it with the wonderful loving family members I am so blessed with now. It is no secret I love Vinny with a Y! I just love this man like I have loved him my whole life. Like he is the missing piece my soul has been waiting for. Divorce is horrible but death in a marriage is worse. Like I have been saying it all comes back to that fork in the road.

This morning I realized something was wrong in my pay and as I was having a "Michele Meltdown". My sweetheart said "Michele take a deep breath, stop and slow down it will be OK. I am here I am here to help you....It's my job". As I was about to tear up because at that very moment Vinny knew what I needed. Instinct kicked in for him because he loves me so much and unconditionally. I am not used to that. What is that? Where does that come from? Amazing something I do for others is the very thing that I initially want to push away because I had been programmed to think- negative thoughts. God has provided me with a man who loves HIM first and me second. What girl wouldn't want that?

I have been on my own now for so long and am so tired trying to make everything work and not drown. I am human and I do not always feel the Holy Spirit's presence in the midst of many weeks having no food to eat, no money for gas and working so hard to make sure my children have all they need. Now I have a man who has over and over gone out of his way to show me Gods love. He has stepped in and lifted me up when I was so weary I did not know what road to take and he just carried me and I have learned to trust him. He wants only good for me. God wants only good for me. Satan wants to devour me. Devour our relationship. I will not give into the enemy. I love Vinny and I love our love story. He always says you have to add this to our book. :) Thank you God! Stay tuned.

In Christ,
Michele