"When Are We Leaving"?

Our love story is one that is so sweet and so adorable. Two people who have suffered almost identically with emotional issues and self doubt were brought together when all seemed lost and forgotten. It was in one of my darkest hours I surrendered ALL to God. I had prepared to die if that was Gods plan and the ending of my story. They had found a lump in my breast and I had to have a biopsy that day. I can remember hearing the words, I can remember the lump in my throat and the feeling that my life was over. I had had beat cancer- stage 3 uterine cancer in the middle of my divorce from hell. There was no way this was going to be in my favor I thought. BUT even in the middle of it I Thanked God for whatever was about to come. A fork in the road- death or life. Give up or Faith. No matter the result I was going to LOVE God ANYWAY! Not after everything I have endured in the past 2 years was it going to come down to me being angry and bitter. It was in that instant I could understand why people suffering from a terminal illness who are believers are peaceful and in the midst of chemo and radiation they are praising God!

As I laid on the table and thought about what was ahead of me. I kept remembering this man I had met with only 4 words. I was coming off Christian Mingle and he was coming on. I had closed my account and given up and he joined and took a leap of faith. I came across his profile and looked at his face. I liked his smile. I said Hmmmmm OK? So I read onto his profile. He seemed kind, made me laugh and talked excessively about The Outer Banks. I hadn't been anywhere with anyone in such a long time. It sounded like so much fun. So I said OK Lord here we go. One more shot. So I sent him a message and ALL it said was "When Are We Leaving"? Less than one hour I believe I had a reply and that was all it took. The connection was made. I was afraid to meet him with not being sure what the results were going to be. I kept him at a distant and would not allow me to get attached. He asked me out for that Saturday. I finally said yes but prepared to cancel if the news was not good. On that Thursday I got the call that the lump was benign and all looked good. I hung up the phone and wept into my hands. I thanked God over and over. I smiled. I was victorious once again.

The first thought after was Vinny.

I then texted him. We talked and texted back and forth and he said "would it be too forward of me to ask you to dinner tonight and not wait till tomorrow"? So I replied with another 4 words- Sure. I'd love to! When he picked me up I was excited. Not nervous really. I came around the truck parked in my driveway and he smiled at me. Hugged me and smiled again. He walked over and opened the door. Said I looked so nice and he loved my glasses. The book The Story was on the seat. He offered it to me. I thought WOW that's a first. The first date and I am offered a book about the Bible. Check Check. We had a wonderful time at dinner. It was so much fun eating on the water and watching the sun go down. He would not stop smiling at me. I had not seen a man smile like that at me in a very long time. There was something so familiar about him. He leaned in and said you smell so good. Check Check. I melted.

After he drove me home and was a gentleman. Expected nothing. Just kept saying he had such a wonderful time and had a good feeling. I said I know me too! We kissed and we both knew at that very moment we would be together forever. It made no sense rhyme or reason. To this day the feeling has only gotten stronger. Our families and friends see it, believe it and for the first time in my life I am in love. I waited for God's timing. It was not until after I surrendered ALL OF ME on that biopsy table and said I still love you Lord did He then with one gift answered ALL of my hearts desires. Things I had not really prayed out loud for but pondered them in my heart. Within one week I was dating a loving and very adorable Godly man, attending a great church with this man and his loving family, been welcomed into this loving families homes and hearts and was attending and joined a women's bible study that was reading the book Vinny offered me!! Only God can do that!!

Nothing is ever over. Nothing is ever as it seems or feels. I could have given up but I didn't. I could have believed all the things people who were to love me forever were saying to me but I refused. I trusted God and in His perfect time and in His perfect way He blessed me over and over. They keep coming too. I am so excited to have crossed over from darkness into light. I am so thankful for every scar, every battle wound and for every tear I shed. They are a reminder to me just how strong and beautiful I am not only to God but to this man that just adores me and cherishes my heart. I hope this touches you in some way. I hope you know how loved you really are and how today is a wonderful day. Stay tuned.

In Christ,
Michele